"Herol, we've (we have) already established words aren't your strong suit, so why waste the ones you do have a grasp of trying to have the last one?" https://www.dictionary.com/browse/we-ve Oh dear....
Oh I see, I get you now. You're still in the denial phase. You'll get past that.... just give it time.
Congratulations, Herol. That's not what you're denying. You're making progress. Baby steps admittedly, but well done all the same. You'll get there...